Why do I do this to myself? How do I get out of this awful rut? Life is very stressful right now. This is not an excuse. But I hate it. Why do I have to put food into my mouth? Why is the food I choose bad? I think that it will help me to feel better, no I think it will help me to feel. I have had to put my feelings on hold. I have to be strong right now. I can't show my weakness. I MUST be strong. So the sugar, the bread, and the other junk food that I shove in my mouth is too help me feel something. Boy does it taste good when it is in my mouth, but when I am done with what ever it is I feel awful. I tell myself I will do better tomorrow and then that day comes and it is another bad day. So I tell myself the same thing again, and it never changes. I know what I need to do, why can't I be like Nike and JUST DO IT! My friend just lost 17 pounds and I found 10 of them. I am glad she knows how to share but really. No I know I did this. It is all me. I am hoping that by putting down my feelings I can kick myself in the butt and fix this. I have to be strong, but the only way to do that is to be healthy. How does one live a healthy life in balance. I have another friend that is an inspiration to me. She feeds her family so well that I am trying to implement those things into my own life. I have another friend who is kicking butt with working out. How do I get motivated to do that when all I want to do is sleep for the next year. I look up to these wonderful ladies and thank them for all they do for me. I need help. I need advice. I my put on a good game face but I am having a hard time. Thank you all for what you are teaching me. Tomorrow is a new day.
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If you figure out the food thing...let me know!! I do the same thing!
Trish, man, I love you. I just want you to know that. I know that you have a lot on your plate right now and the next year is not going to be easy, just know that I'm here for ya if you need anything, even just to talk.
I have been on the receiving end of finding friends lost pounds for a long time. I am an emotional eater and it wasn't until I started dealing with my feelings that I was able to start thinking about how destructive I was being to myself. Don't get me wrong though, I still struggle daily and some days are worse than others, like I just discovered Smores Pot tarts grrrrr. I think my motivation started when I was invited by someone to workout and it snowballed from there. So come with us, I feel so much better when I'm done and I know you do to. When I work out I am less likely to eat awful all of the time because I worked so hard that day that I don't want to mess it up. I have a long way to go, and I've had so much help from my friends, but I know I can do it now and I know you can do it too. Love ya babe
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